Josh Baker

Tuesday, 7 October 2008, 14:10

the radar...

Lauren called me again this morning to say that Lilly was back in Sheffield and in her flat, although she hasn't had time to talk to her yet. I was thinking of going straight over, but knew it wouldn't do any good. I've tried ringing her, and her phone's on, but she just keeps diverting my call. Everyone on campus is talking about what happened and how bad they feel for Lilly, and I'm glad Summer's getting a pretty hard time over it - nothing less than she deserves.

Anyway, so the Lilly radar is on and everyone's been coming up to me asking if I knew Lilly was back on campus. Each time I looked like a fool, telling them that I didn't have a clue. Then they realise we haven't made up, and start kinda feeling sorry for me. I'm just not into all this shit, all the squealing gossiping girls and the dirty looks and bitching and it all does my head in, I hate it.

Got rugby try outs tonight, and I'm this close to skipping it but I know my Dad will kill me if he finds out. The player that does best in try outs gets to train with Wasps every week, which is pretty much the coolest thing in the whole world. But I just feel I haven't got the energy. I don't even want it, I don't care about it right now. Last week it was my whole dream but this week is a whole new kettle of fish.