Josh Baker

Sunday, 5 October 2008, 15:38

frustrated beyond words...

As soon as I got back to Sheffield I went straight around to try and apologise to Lilly. But she had already gone, and no one knows where. I've rang everybody I can think of, not that many people are much help; they just want to know the latest.

I feel like such a twat. Correction: I am a twat. I've lost Lilly before it even got started, that's how much of a twat I am. I don't really know what to do at the moment, I want to find her but I'm pretty much sure me Ollie and Lauren are the last people she wants to see. And we can't blame her, because we all let her down.

I just can't get the picture of her hurt face out of my head. I could see that she was determined not to cry, and that made me feel even more gutted.

I've messed up.