Josh Baker

Tuesday, 30 September 2008, 12:00

lucky stars...

Okay, so I just leaving the house for the library at 11 this morning when I swung the door open and Lilly was stood there, just about to reach up for the doorbell. I did try to hide and smile on my face but I think she caught it. Anyway, after apologising for nearly knocking her flying again I asked her what she was doing here, cos I thought she wouldn't want to go for lunch today. She said [an excuse for just wanting to see me, clearly] Camps - Lauren, I'm assuming - made her keep to her promise, because the forfeit is huge is she cancelled, and she wondered if we could have lunch in my house today instead of going out somewhere.

Fine by me!

Apart from the house was a bloody tip. Honestly, I was embarrassed. Luckily my room was tidy so I took her straight up there and we chilled out for a bit and I made some pasta. She didn't eat much of it, but promised it wasn't for my cooking. It was a bit surreal hanging out just the two of us but she seemed quite comfortable and it was a really nice hour or so.

She said she's keeping to my promise of a burger tomorrow, so I'm a bit nervous for that. God, why am I falling so quickly for her? She's just so perfect. I don't know how she's feeling in all of this, all I can guess is that she's still torn up about Jamie, but I can take her out and be there for her, right? God I was so nervous today. I was like jesus i'm sat on my bed with the girl I really like, I got a bit panicky, wondering what she thought of my room and whether it was too messy or... I tried to play it cool anyway. I hope she didn't notice I was a bit nervous. We made a date to meet in town at 7.30 tomorrow evening, so hopefully it'll all go to plan. She didn't say anything about backlash from Summer, but I'm guessing she's keeping it to herself.

I hope she turns up.