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Wednesday, 8 October 2008, 23:43
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So I ended up having to go to hospital this morning to get my ribs seen to. Found out two are fractured and I've had to have it all bandaged up and it fucking kills but anyway that's not the point.

I was sat there bored in a hospital bed waiting today, wishing I had some visitors to come and see me, cos I pretty much had enough time on my hands to think about things and that's never good. But I soon changed my mind as soon as Summer walked through the door, all smiles and looking cute with magazines and grapes in her hand, as if I was her boyfriend and had been through a major fucking car crash. She was the last person I wanted to see, I don't know how she found her way up to the ward the oriental bimbo that she is. Anyway she came over and knowing full well that I couldn't move away from her too quickly, planted a kiss on my cheeks before plopping herself down next to me. I asked her what the fuck she was doing here and she said she was coming to look after me. I told her about three times that I wanted her to leave, but well Summer is Summer, she only does what she wants to do...

So I was finally getting used to her being there and having to talk to her, when two minutes later Ollie walks in, again with magazines and his psp in his hand. The other person I last wanted to see. I could tell that he was looking dead hopefully, but his face fell when 1) he saw how angry I looked and 2) when he saw Summer sitting down by my bedside. As usual, Summer went blabbering on making a big fuss of Ollie, saying how awful it was that Lilly had made up such lies about him, and he didn't dare look at me. I butted in and told Summer that it's fully Ollie's fault that he forced himself onto Lilly. Then Summer interrupted and said let's not talk about her today. I could have killed her.

Then the worse thing happened. Lilly walked in. She looked really upset and I knew it would have taken a lot of guts for her to come and see me, and I couldn't stand the way her face fell when she saw Ollie, and then straightaway went pale at the sight of Summer. I felt so awful. It was silent for a bit until Summer stood up and turned to Lilly with her hands on her hips. She suddenly started yelling at Lilly asking her if she could see what she had done to her face, and Lilly didn't even make an effort to fight back. Summer was right up in her face and Ollie had to literally drag her away. The commotion attracted the attention of the nurse and she said everyone had to leave "apart from Mr Baker's girlfriend." We all looked around puzzled but there was Summer standing with her hands on her hips, with a smug smile on her face. So she had obviouslyu told the nurse that she was my fucking girlfriend. Lilly looked like she was the one who had been smacked, and she quickly turned to leave but I finally spoke up and told the nurse that there had been a mix up. And then I did something kinda stupid and said "Summer's not my girlfriend, Lilly is." Lilly looked a bit started, the nurse looked confused, and Summer looked pissed off. But I knew it was the only way the other two would be made to leave and Lilly could stay. Ollie looked majorly pissed off too but I couldn't do much about that. Summer stormed out of the hospital muttering something, and then it was just Lilly stood there and me sat in my bed, an awkward silence between us.

I looked her in the eye and was going to tell her how sorry I was, but then got a bit angry and instead asked her what she was doing here. I felt awful when tears started rolling down her cheeks, and she told me that she was really sorry about her brother and the way she had got me into trouble. I don't know why but I got angry with her and told her that she had ruined my whole chance of getting to train with the Wasps squad, and cos I had fractured bloody ribs I was out for at least six weeks, which would probably cost me my first team place in Hallam. She looked mortified when she realised I hadn't got the part, and she began to say that Corey had said I would definitely get the place. So I told her my point was proven, and look who had gone and ruined it all. I was just frustrated and it came out towards her, even though it wasn't really her fault. She got really upset and said that she had just come to apologise, and could understand how angry I was with her, and that she would leave me alone.

I couldn't stand to leave it how it was so I called her back and she turned around at the door, jumping when she realised I had got up and was standing right in front of her. I moved her hair out of her face and when she looked up at me I couldn't help but lean down to kiss her. But the nurse interrupted us, telling me I was free to go home now, and gave me a crutch to help with my walking. Without saying a word Lilly helped me get all of my things together, and helped me out of the hospital. We got a cab together to my house, and the guys were all out so she offered to come in and cook for me cos I was starving. I got into bed and half an hour later she brought up some great pasta for me to eat, although didn't eat herself. We made small talk but I couldn't stand it any more so I asked her what had happened between her and Ollie. She didn't even look shocked when I asked her. She just quietly started to tell me about what happened. She got really upset and I took her hand at one stage and she sat next to me on my bed. She told me how he forced himself onto her at my party, because he was drunk. And because she was drunk, she pretty much gave up after a while of telling him to back off. I don't think me and Ollie can really be mates again. He's not the guy I thought he was.

Lilly's asleep on my bed next to me, and I can't get a cover for her cos I'm fucking hurting too much. She looks quite peaceful though, although really drained. And I hadn't noticed before, not even on our little dating week, but it looks to me now that she hasn't really eaten or slept since my party. She's quiet a lot skinnier than I remember, and it's made me really worried about her. Her friends haven't even realised; they're too holed up in Lauren's eating disorder to realise that Lilly might be developing one too. I don't know how things are going to be in the morning, and we'll probably never speak again, but I'm going to try my hardest to look out for her.