Josh Baker

Thursday, 23 October 2008, 12:32

gutless...

So it's pretty much near to the end of the week and I still haven't plucked up the courage to talk to Lilly. I know I said I was going to wait for everything to calm down but I can't help thinking about her. So I think I'm going to call her tonight and see if she wants to hang out for a bit. It's pound a pint so we could always go for a drink or something...

All the guys are telling me to go for it but I'm just so gutless. I don't even know how she feels; she was pretty mad at me at the party and said she didn't want to talk to me again, so...
Argh for fuck's sake. At the start of term I was going out with frigging Summer Francis-Smith, who was making me the most miserable person on earth. And so now that I like someone who I know is going to be great, I should just go for it and make myself happy. It's just not as easy as it sounds.

Mum rang again today and said she didn't feel too well, which worried me a bit but we're going over tomorrow so hopefully we can help her out with looking after Mikey and what have you. I just hope she's not pushing herself too hard with everything.