Josh Baker

Thursday, 16 October 2008, 16:50

bummed...

I just went for lunch with Lauren and Jordon cos he's come back over to Sheffield for the weekend, and we spotted Lilly having coffee with that guy I saw her with on Tuesday. Even Lauren looked surprised and said she didn't think Lilly had any plans for today, which made me wonder why she was keeping it a secret from everyone. I felt really gutted to see them so comfortable laughing and chatting away together like they were the other night.

Anyway Lilly looked over and spotted Lauren, so we all went over and Lilly didn't seem awkward at all. She seemed really friendly; obviously she finds it a lot more effortless than me to act friendly... I felt really awkward stood there like an idiot. Lilly and Lauren were chatting away, and then Lilly laughed and blushed and said she was rude for not "introducing my friend..." to me and Jordon... she introduced her friend, who is called Owen, and who seems like a really nice guy. Which kinda makes everything worse... Well, the thing that really does make it worse is that he's obviously Irish cos he speaks with an Irish accent, and girls find that totally irresistable right?

So, we all got chatting away and Lilly looked at me a few times, and I swear I caught her with that look in her eye that she used to give me when we were out on dates together. But I dunno. She just seemed really friendly.

And I feel really shit. When we left, Lauren explained that she'd known Owen for ages, and I think she got a bit carried away as she told me he's such a nice guy and him and Lilly are getting on really well and blah blah yadda yadda. Jordon had to give her a not-so-discreet nudge to shut her up and she looked at me apologetically.

Oh, and to top it all off, when we walked past again an hour later they were still chatting away.
And Lauren said Lilly's not coming to the party. Probably because she's spending the night with her Irish loverboy.

I hate this jealousy bullshit.