Spent the afternoon/evening with Lilly after coming home from the hospital. Mum's awake and talking although she's devastated about what's happened. Lilly's been keeping me company all night and she's been so great with Mikey and everyone, even driving my Grandparents home and cooking dinner for us all.

Half an hour ago there was a knock at the door and Dad called up saying it was for me. I went downstairs and there was Ollie. Because I was so wound up from the whole day I went a bit mad and asked him what he was doing turning up on my doorstep. He told me Lilly had rang him - I stupidly went upstairs back to my room and yelled at her too. She tried to calm me down but I just couldn't calm down and she said she asked Ollie to come over to help out and make everything better. So I stupidly got really mad and told her that she was making everything worse. She got really upset and stood up and tried to reason with me for some reason everything that I had kept in these past couple of days came out and I yelled at her really bad; I don't know why the hell I took my anger out on her when she had been the one who stuck with me through the weekend. She looked so hurt and as soon as Ollie came in the room I came to my senses and tried to apologise but Lilly was already gathering her stuff together. I tried to stop her from leaving; she was crying and I knew she couldn't drive home if she was in a state, plus she had had a couple of glasses of wine, but she just rushed past me and Ollie followed her.

Dad heard the whole thing and is now really mad with me and I want to drive after her but ARGH.

Spent the afternoon/evening with Lilly after coming home from the hospital. Mum's awake and talking although she's devastated about what's happened. Lilly's been keeping me company all night and she's been so great with Mikey and everyone, even driving my Grandparents home and cooking dinner for us all.

Half an hour ago there was a knock at the door and Dad called up saying it was for me. I went downstairs and there was Ollie. Because I was so wound up from the whole day I went a bit mad and asked him what he was doing turning up on my doorstep. He told me Lilly had rang him - I stupidly went upstairs back to my room and yelled at her too. She tried to calm me down but I just couldn't calm down and she said she asked Ollie to come over to help out and make everything better. So I stupidly got really mad and told her that she was making everything worse. She got really upset and stood up and tried to reason with me for some reason everything that I had kept in these past couple of days came out and I yelled at her really bad; I don't know why the hell I took my anger out on her when she had been the one who stuck with me through the weekend. She looked so hurt and as soon as Ollie came in the room I came to my senses and tried to apologise but Lilly was already gathering her stuff together. I tried to stop her from leaving; she was crying and I knew she couldn't drive home if she was in a state, plus she had had a couple of glasses of wine, but she just rushed past me and Ollie followed her.

Dad heard the whole thing and is now really mad with me and I want to drive after her but ARGH.

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